today you told me "you are so good at writing you know that?"
you just confirmed my decision to be an english teacher when i'm older.
i don't know why you affect me so much.
It sucks how my heart wants to be with you but my head is being realistic.
You're super cute and nice. I'm terrified that you'll get over me while I'm falling for you. So I keep saying that you're just my friend.
You have no idea how much I want to be more than that. But I'm scared. I wanna let you in. I will let you in. Just wait for me. Please?
AB,
You're like my best friend and high school brought us more closer.
Friday 3rd of September brought us closer together. You and I with your
friends hanging out all together. You flirting with me and me just being
damn quiet. :/ What a fail am I huh? I wish I could have talked more to
you. I love how you call me slut and I call you man whore (how you call
me slut but you kid but I call you man whore I kid but I'm actually saying
it to your face because you kinda are) . And when I said I hate you and
you say I love you too; and I say liar and you just give me the biggest
hug in front of your guy friends for the longest time just so you can prove
you love me. I told you to let go and you said no which made me
wanna start tickling and poking you so you could stop but I didn't
because you were giving me the best hug I've ever gotten in years..
We liked eachother when we both met at church. Then lost contact for
almost a year. Then who knew you come to my high school, 1st day of
school really surprised me you said my name and I turned around and
you said hey and i say hi and your name and I go up a step and hug you
and you got super tall and I had to go on my tippy toes just to reach you
and I was a step higher than you.. You really did get tall last time I saw
you. Anyways I can't believe you switched music genres you went from
screamo, acostic, to rap //: As long as you're still the same person I
don't care as much. Just don't turn into a Brian S. ( went from
long hair, acoustic music, acoustic guitar player, keyboardist, to rap
gangster wannabe white boy and a bad influence) Please I beg you
don't play on girls like Brian. Don't act like him. I'll be disappointed. But
I'm glad you're growing back your hair A. I don't want to be mean but
you look like a ass with short hair a little bit but still in a way innocent
A from when I met back at Church a year ago. Back to music I'm so
happy you remember that we you used to sit next to me and ask if
we can listen to music before Church started. I remember you would
always play that cover of With or without you from Breath Carolina.
I think you tried to tell me something whenever you played that because
do you remember how close we were sitting next to eachother? Our
legs touching and you would let your hand lay there. I always looked
down on your hand I wanted to hold your hand but I didn't. I wish I could
have. I wish when we were at the mall Friday that I could have talked
more to you but instead I walked by the side to you looking and thinking
like a dumb ass trying to decide if I should talk to you more. I should
have. I need a chance, you want me to switch to 2nd lunch or your PE
period but I don't want to change my lunch my bro is in 2nd lunch.. And
I would loose my photography class on 4th period. I'd rather you change
your classes. BLAAAAAH! :D I'm done now.
♥,
BR
PS: people who read it I know this was kinda all over the place and probably hard to understand but anyone care for some suggestions to help me out? :o
Boy with the most adorable curly hair,
I'm scared that you might wake up one morning and stop liking me.That's why I get distant. I like you a lot, but I'm protecting my heart.
Prove me wrong.
- Girl with straight hair
The world won't let me forget about you.
Your name appears on street signs and stores, i see older guys that could be the older version of you, on the streets i sometimes see a happy couple that could be the older version of us with a child, in my class there is always a guy that sounds like you....
Really?
Is the world trying to tell me something?
dear heart, I hope you're having a beautiful morning.
love, ME
I cant tell this to my friends. They will think im crazy. I cant tell this to my family. Because they dont believe in God. I could telling it to him. But it involved him. Alot.
Tonight i was at church, and God told me not to worry, that MG (my best friend and crush/man i am in love with) is like a vault. Keeping my heart safe until im ready for it. Until he, and everyone else is ready for my full heart. The reason why im so attacted towards MG is because he has a part of me, which he is holding onto. Keeping safe from harm. It isnt just him that im holding onto.
THankyou Jesus!
<3
I have enough IQ to join Mensa, but when it comes to love and especially to you I just act like this stupid fuck, and that's something I really can't control.